This last two weeks have been a range of emotions including rejoicing with friends and a deep analysis of what time of year it is.
3 very good friends had their babies these last few weeks..leaving me with a awe of God for the miracles He allows and also a reverence that I still need Him very much.
Friend #1 has had several miscarriages including a precious pregnancy loss of twin babies. Our emotional connection has always been strong due to heartache and hope that God overrides all that is hard in this life. She felt very strongly that she would never carry her own children and so her family sought out adoption avenues. Through prayer and grace, she now has 3 beautiful children that are born from her heart! Unlike God, (being sarcastic) He blessed her recently with a "shock" pregnancy that bore her a sweet daughter Kendall this month.
Friend #2 Although she hasn't struggled with infertility or pregnancy loss she has a sweet spirit about connecting with me on the issue. She is careful and loving...gives it much attention to talk and listen about the things I have gone through. 9 days ago she delivered Mihani...a precious baby girl and little sister to lovely Kareese. Their family is full of the most beautiful girls!
Friend #3 is coming home from the hospital today. Our visit in the hospital revealed such love for her new bundle. Gracie came due to the obedience of my friend to allow God to gift them. She is tiny and fragile, new and exciting! She is sooo pretty and my friends eyes sparkle as she gazes on the grace of God that is sleeping snug to her chest.
How can I not rejoice?? Most incredible events and soo close to home :)
3 new girls...3 new lives...
I would be lying if I said I didn't think of my daughter as well especially since she would have been due in a few weeks as well. People would visit us marveling what God had done for us, commenting on her beauty. I wonder if she would've looked like me, or her father..maybe a perfect combination of the both of us. I just wonder... Its not painful today just a thought or daydream of what things could have looked like.
In the meantime I cant focus there too long. Our new son will be born in just a few short weeks. O how I cant wait to study every little wrinkle and movement he makes. He has me more anxious about his arrival everyday. I wait for him with such intensity that must compare to our babies waiting for our arrivals to heaven someday.
Someday! That's the focus today! Some Day! we will all be together again! I read the book Heaven is for Real recently. It touched my heart for I know that a great reunion is coming closer every day!
Here is our current ultrasound, "Elle" is so close to having him. He is weighing approx 5.5 lbs and growing :) ...love him, love him, love him!
*Adoption paperwork will be smooth and quick
*Logan to be surprised by God :)
*Healing for Mihani..she has been running a fever
*Faith N Fertility and the families they are helping
*For you...to know, believe, trust, and love God more today then you did yesterday!