Friday, April 1, 2011

Say Cheese!

Today's ultrasound was the feat that just about beat me....the closer we got to the time the more my heart raced.  The peace that passes all understanding had been with me nearly all week long.  I had a few bouts of anxiousness but for the most part I was focused on other things.  The hr before the appt was another story, my hands were sweaty, my belly sick with nervousness, and I could pee every 5 minutes if I allowed myself.

We didn't wait but a few minutes before they called us in.  A young girl gave me my instructions along with my paper blankie, and left us alone to prepare.  Chad ran the camcorder again, we like to send each video to our Doc in Missouri as well, so we can have a second opinion on anything we may or may not see.

At 6 wks our ultrasound showed only a gestational sac, it was made pretty clear to us that this pregnancy had only a small chance of continuing on.  Even though the Dr sounded optimistic he matter of a factly told us that there should have been a yolk sac and fetus in the gestational sac....and because it was empty, we would just have to wait and see.  All week long I have just hoped an prayed that we would get to our appt and see that everything was ok...that this time I didnt have to be "that girl" who broke everybodies hearts with news of disappointment.

I am happy to say that we saw the gestational sac and it had grown so much since 10 days ago, and inside that sac was a tiny (3.4mm) baby with a yolk sac....and a little beating heart! The tech took a snapshot...Say Cheese!!   Babies first picture was so blurry and meek...I love every millimeter :)

We were so thrilled!!

Because my life tends to have drawbacks, we were left with a bit of pondering though.  The baby measures at 6 wk 1 day.  IVF doesn't leave much wiggle room since you know exactly when you trigger ovulation, retrieve eggs, and transfer ivf tells us we are 7wks 3 days.  This odd amount of time in between just doesn't make sense.  My Dr. in Indy says it could be that we got pregnant on our own...still don't understand that one, considering I had no eggs (they were all retrieved) and I was on pelvic rest for 5 weeks or egg/no sperm/no baby...

My Dr. in Missouri says...No big deal, Ive seen cases just like this and they catch up or just continue on with normal growth.

Either way, we are back to waiting.  We have another ultrasound scheduled in 11 days.  Indy Doc says if there is a strong heartbeat then, we will stop worrying.  Ugh.. I don't know if I will ever stop worrying, til baby is home and keeping me up all night :)  We stopped in town on our way home and bought a pair of maternity pants and some long shirts.  Sounds funny while baby is so small but reguardless I have gained 14 plus pounds since beginning of ivf and nothing fits.  After putting them on I realized that I should have been wearing them all my life.  Let me tell you, maternity pants are for everyone!!  A piece of heaven :)

Thank you for all your prayers, I have received so many emails, posts, and texts!!  You guys are amazing and are all "Jesus in the flesh" to me.  I love you!
Im trying to upload the video so you all can see...I'll have it on here soon.

***Info on a retroverted uterus (tipped) ...which is what I asked about in the video. These questions and more Info can be found at

What is a retroverted uterus?
A retroverted uterus, also known as a tipped or tilted uterus, is a uterus that tilts back toward the rectal area. In most women the uterus will tilt slightly forward toward the belly. Actually, having a retroverted uterus is quite common. Reports vary but approximately 20% to 40% of all women have a retroverted uterus. Because this is so common, doctors rarely mention if you have a tilted uterus unless you ask.

Why is it so difficult to find the baby via ultrasound?
Actually only during the early first trimester do we believe it may be a little more difficult to find the baby via transvaginal ultrasound. After talking to women and their ultrasound techs we've concluded that the positioning is more awkward when the uterus is retroverted and this makes viewing a bit trickier. There may be a possibility that when the baby lies parallel to the ultrasound beam, measurments may be off and the baby will appear smaller than he actually is. However, in the second trimester, measurements are generally more accurate in women with a tilted uterus.

**Pray in agreeance with me: 
Rise up angels of the unborn...minister to the wombs!  Rise up lovers of Christ and tend to the flocks around you!  Rise up little children, pray your sweet prayers with your simple hearts!  Rise of body of the lamb, Speak loud and firm about the love of you Lord!